I must say, its quiet beautiful to learn more and more about myself and my ways by the blessing of breathing fresh new breath every day. Aloha Life brothers and sisters. Thank you for this blessing.

I have recently experienced myself being influenced a bit, and not fully honoring my truth. We have so many truths. One truth of mine is that I feel much better without orgasm. I feel more sexually alive when I circulate the sexual energy versus disperse it thru an orgasm.

Recently, as my life partner arrived back on the island, I actually ended up having an orgasm. Now, this is totally okay. Like I said, the awareness, learning and growth is what I value. I am feeling like I learned a lot from this experience of having an orgasm after at least 23 days of no orgasm.

So. What did I learn ? I learned that no matter what is happening in the physical world I choose to stay strong and committed in what I know feels the best for me. I choose to value most my staying true to myself versus do something that may feel really amazing in the moment, but later show me that perhaps its not really my most preferred feeling. Of course in the bigger picture I know that of course I wanted the orgasm. Thats why I had it ! So I could gain this new level of awareness of how much I choose to Stay Strong in my Truth. Not be tempted by changing physical reality to react, do or say something I really don’t want to say or do.

Another thing I learned is that I can express my feelings of agitation to my partner. I can honestly share the affect I feel from having the orgasm. I can share everything with him. My feeling that I just want to be alone and that I feel less free when he is around. Basically I learned that I cannot hide my insecurities with him. I have to share them. I learned that I am loved in the space of feeling all that I feel. I learned that its safe and okay for me to always share my experience and feelings with him. Even when it has to do with him. I learned that it’s the sharing that matters most. The honestly of what is alive in me. Sharing the true raw feelings.

I learned that we can share things, and that they do not always have to be pretty. That even when its something we may not feel is nice it’s still good to just express it because it feels real in that moment. I learned that I am in the best relationship ever. Because I can truly share all of myself. That my partner wants me to be open and share. I learned that I am loved in my insecurities too. And in my fear.

Orgasm can make me feel different in my mood. Like it brings up agitation energy and insecurities. Circulating the energy by breathing a lot while we make love is what makes me feel so good !

Like its really not the biggest deal, yet, I love being really picky about how I feel. Like, I value feeling really amazing ! And I know what I must do to feel amazing. One thing is circulate the sexual energy versus disperse it. Another thing is get proper sleep at the right times. Another thing is eat vegan plant based and stay hydrated. Another one is Feel Connection to who I am beyond body/mind and always remember where I come from and who I eternally am. I value feeling connected to Truth. Eternal One truth of Infinite Love. Abstaining from orgasm really supports my desire for deeper connection with the whole. With You. With Me.

Another way I am staying strong in my Truth is this situation that is happening at the place I am staying. There is a women here who is known for causing lots of trouble and drama. She makes many people cry and feel very uncomfortable. She is very mentally unstable in my perception. She has verbally attacked me and many of my friends. She has been sweet to me and manipulated me and then really treated me so badly. I allowed this to happen before because I did not know better. Also I was wanting to believe that she was my dear sister that I loved. But slowly but surely she started showing some very disturbing qualities that I honestly find a bit creepy and scary. So she got kicked out of this place yet she keeps coming back. Nobody wants her here. Yet she forces herself to places and people. Anyways, enough about that. I feel so much compassion for her. I cannot be angry or upset anymore.

Even when she steals from me. Its like, I am aware of my mind wanting to react and be upset but honestly I just wish her the best and also that she stays away from my space. The way I am Staying Strong in My Truth is to not react with anger or judgement. When she is judging and blaming others and myself for being evil humans I am just feeling compassion and love. feeling the feelings I desire for her to feel so badly. I am SO grateful that I am able to keep my calm and peace. feel my preferred outcome versus get into a cat fight with her. Before I have been very defensive and reactive towards her now honestly I could care less. Her energy cannot affect me because I am so Committed to my Truth of choosing Love and compassion versus hatred and blame.

I am however setting the strongest energetic and physical boundary ever. I blocked her from fb and don’t want her anywhere near me. This boundary is serving me so well ! Fuck I am so happy to not be miss nice I want everyone to like me kinda girl anymore. If you treat me like that, I will strongly state that I am not to be treated this way. I am not going to tolerate it in my space. So Yes, I can be in the same space as her yet I’m not affected at all. Im in my world. She feels the boundary. And its so Wonderful. Haha.

This is a big one for me. A lesson learned. I used to react big time. Like I would argue and debate with her try to change her outlook. Now I know I do not want that energy in my life. So I stay Strong in my Truth and firmly state that to the universe. It all works out when we know what we desire the most and act upon it. Allow life to shape itself according to what we desire.

In what ways are you staying strong in your Truth ?

Momentum is generally used to mean increasing forward motion. A boulder rolling down a hill gains momentum. So does a great idea, a team on a winning streak, or the economy. … Used figuratively, momentum implies that, like a boulder rolling down a hill, something with momentum will continue moving forward on its own.

If you could choose, Would you choose to see the ball of Love, Peace, Bliss, Compassion get bigger ? Or the ball of judgement, worry, doubt, fear, anger ?

My answer is the love ball. I choose that one to get BIGGER! So what can we do to make it bigger ? Build a momentum. It is guaranteed to get bigger when we deliberately choose to make it so. We hold then power to make it as big or small as we wish.

I am feeling and realizing the power of building momentum of what we desire most in our lives. This is how reality in the 3D dimension works. If we build momentum of anything it will show itself in the physical, eventually.
So whatever you desire and wish to see become physical. Think, feel and act upon that. Live as if you already have it. Feel your preferred outcome now and live as if it is real Now. This is building a momentum of just that. The preferred outcome. It will come. It will come.

So check yourself and see where you are still in conflict with your preferred momentum. Meaning see where you are still holding on to thoughts, beliefs or stories that go against your preferred momentum, your preferred outcome. If You realize Now how powerful you actually are.
That you create this world by your outlook, view, perception and beliefs. You can begin taking empowering steps to change the world you see into the world you desire most. It can be anything You desire. So use you imagination to really feel what world you choose. And then, from there, think it, feel it and see it in your minds eye. Create this inner belief of what the world is like.

I create a Peaceful world. Where we are all Abundant, rich and all our needs are cared for in amazing fun exciting ways! Where we communicate openly and honestly. Where we can do what we love the most and get paid for doing it.

That last one, getting paid for doing what we love most. That is one I am fine tuning right now. I am more and more stepping into this truth that I can do it. That I am worthy of this. That I have a lot to offer. That My Gifts are precious.
That I am allowed to feel, think and believe that I am fucking awesome. Or at least that I am allowed to really believe in myself. I Honestly really do believe in myself and my ability to create abundance. Self Love and self care is so important for this to ever unfold. The moment to moment practice of self loving thoughts, feelings and actions. The moment to moment practice of allowing. Allowing whatever wants to express and play out to do so. Maybe its a nap or maybe its starting taking the steps towards creating a dream program for people. A perfect program that I myself would love to attend and be apart of. A program that I would Buy! Maybe its starting that process. That feels so fun ! Cacao, meditation, CBD, naked dancing and reflections. Exercise and recipes. Yeah. Yes. Its happening.

So how can we build momentum ? Well, commit all the way to what you desire. Get married to your most purest desires. Im not talking ego desires. Im talking Soul, Spirit, Source, God, Love Desires. No matter what happens outside you. Choose to build a new momentum of what you actually desire.

So Instead of thinking about everything you dislike or everything that you wish would go away, think about what you really want to see. No matter how fucked up it is in your reality. Choose to go the magician way and rise above it and live in what you prefer to be true. This is a magical world that we can shape and mold. Realize you can shape it. You are powerful. You are not a victim. You have the choice. To choose how you respond. How you think, feel and what you believe. How you act.

Do you really desire Love and Bliss ? Well then, if you do, its yours ! Feel it now no matter what. Stop the thoughts that are keeping you in suffering and victimhood.

By all means, always embrace your feelings when they arise. But just remember to not dwell in them. Feel them heal them and release them. Learn from them, grow from them. See them as powerful teachers. See your judgements and critical thoughts as teachers showing you where you could align a little more to your true most loving self.

So first step is. You gotta really want it. You actually gotta really want it because once you go towards it all that other stuff that is not what you want will fall away. This may be a painful process because maybe we have identified with these things for some time, or long time. Maybe we believe that makes up who we are and now its falling away. The suffering the misery the victimhood. Its gonna go… Who are we ? When this shit goes ?

Love. Spaciousness. Freedom. Openness. Peace. Bliss. Who we always have been and always will be.

We have no control. Of how life unfolds. But, we do have control over our thoughts, actions and words. And truly, our thoughts actions and words do create our reality. They really do. It’s all made up by us. How liberating!

This is a forever important reminder because we live in a world that can and has been very overreactive and quick to cast blame or judgement. I see in my own self where I am in a space of seeing the illusion of separation as real. So I cast blame or judge.
When we cast blame or judge and feel anything other than compassion and love it feels a bit uneasy. It is because, we are not blame or judgement. We are Love and Compassion.

So the experience of feeling inconvenienced by another person is actually feeling inconvenienced by our untrue thoughts of separation. If we were feeling our big whole connection to the universe and all that is to ourSelves then this would not occur.
We would simply smile breathe and keep living from moment to moment in deep gratitude and appreciation for the simple natural goodness of being. Of breathing. Of Feeling. I prefer to be in this space. Live in my heart body and womb. Feel deeply here versus allow my mind to take me on an emotional roller coaster !

When we allow the mind to get overreactive, its like stirring a pot of soup we do not actually desire to eat. But we begin stirring it really fast and adding all kinds of unwanted vegetables into it.

Shoots ! I Prefer to slowly stir a soup of Love and Compassion. Self acknowledgement and acceptance of what is coming up in the moment but not needing to play what is coming up out. Just a simple yet powerful awareness of what is arising.

Instead of something arising and I directly just run that story as if its what I want, I prefer to see it, feel it, and then CHOOSE if that is the reality I want to create more of.

I Hold the keys ! I Choose if I wanna drive down this or that path. Whatever thoughts I continually think will become the path. So right now I have a choice to create what path I do want to drive down or walk.

It takes some deliberate choosing what thought we desire to think and then sticking to it. It takes building anew momentum of what we desire versus what we do not like. Its all about giving our awareness and focus to what we desire. Our Pure Clean Desires. I have Pure clean desires of Love Peace and Harmony. I have desire to self accept and acknowledge all my feelings and emotions, to embrace them, yet I choose to not be run by them. I choose to be run by my Pure Desires. Act upon my pure desires.

Anytime I act on something other then my pure desires I feel it. In my Body. Its beautiful to notice it. And come back. Its a constant state of coming back, its a constant choosing of the highest.

Remembering why we came here, to see thru the illusion of separation and experience the Infinite Abundance of this Universe.
The Infinite possibilities. Our ability to create the world that we desire to see. It begins in this moment, we create only Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now. Now….YES. Now.

We can only ever begin shifting when we first truly DEEPLY Know Trust and Understand that We are the Jedis ! The magicians ! The shape shifters and molders of this reality. Its our world. We choose what kind of world we wanna breathe in and be in.

Step out of victimhood mentality and into empowered Queens and Kings. Rooted in the Center of our Being. This Being Is an Ever expansion of Love. Yes. So catch up, with your beautiful self. And feel ease peace and Harmony Now.

When I say catch up I mean align your thoughts and stories with the thoughts and stories of who You Really Are.

You are the One that can hold space for anything to arise and express. You are the space that embraces and holds all fears and pain. You are not the one that reacts to fear and pain and judges it as wrong. You are the One that holds it. Embraces it. Deeply feels it. You are the one that feels it without any attached story. You are the One that feels without commentary. Just pure feeling. It is Bliss. No matter what the feeling, if we can just purely feel it, without any story or thought about why it is here, yeah, this is Bliss. When all the commentary and stories fade away and we remain.

Thank you to every single human being in my life for helping me see where I still believe we are separate. Where I am holding on to stories I do not actually desire to create more of in this life. Thank You for showing up and creating discomfort in me.
I see now its not about you. Its about me. And me stepping into this new energy that I truly desire. Im being shown Can I do it ?
Am I ready to commit all the way to being and living in My Pure Desires ?. Yes. I feel scared saying it but fucking YES!!!
Its a big yes ! I commit and I choose this.

It takes constant practice moment to moment to remain in what I desire most. In Peace, Bliss, Love, Abundance, Courage, Bravery, Connection, Warmth, Tenderness, Appreciation, Kindness, Care, Empathy and Consideration.

I choose this. I really choose this. All that is not this and not in alignment with Me is going to fall away. Its going to vanish. Thank You for human beings that bring this up for me and trigger the parts of me that still cannot accept and stay in connection. Thank You for Showing me where I can Let go and Release more. Thank You. Deeply Thank you. Thank You for showing me where I a still creating a reality I do not want. Where I am blindly reacting.

I choose to stay in this that I desire and feel is Purely me. Breathe, feel, accept, embrace, acknowledge, release and let go.

And it is not about bypassing our feelings and emotions and pretending we do not feel them or experience them. It is about being willing to drop the created thought or story attached to that feeling and instead just feeling it.
Come back to the power place of your body. Where all you can do is feel. Come hOMe to your body and just feel. No stories. No Thoughts about what is happening. Its just happening.

We create the meaning to people, situations and things. We give the meaning by our thoughts, stories and held onto beliefs.

I choose to Have the mind be in Alignment with my Pure Desires. Basically in alignment with who we all are. This is all I desire for this mind. To think thoughts, tell stores, and believe what we Truly Know is True. That Love is all there is.

There is no separation. Only Love is Real.

Nothing Real can be threatened. Nothing Unreal exists.

We are abundant beings in all aspects of our Life. We have unlimited amount of positive and empowering thoughts.
We can always take action from our Pure desires. Yes we can and Yes we will!

Orgasm. Its such an amazing experience. Wow Thank you for the experience of having an orgasm and sharing it with a human being that is such a deeply nourishing energy to connect with. So Sweet, sexy, strong, powerful, kind, gentle, present, caring, loving fun and authentic.
Its incredible to share such powerful energy of orgasm with such a wonderful being and I am Grateful to be able to have such an experience. Yet, at the same time, we choose not to. We say Thank You I Love You, But No Thank You 😀

Why say no Thank You to the thing that everyone talks about and raves about ? To the thing that feels SO SO SOOOO Good !
Why?…..

Well, the orgasm has an affect on the body/mind and mood. I Believe it is a very beneficial thing to have an orgasm sometimes, I mean just sometimes.
Like not completely dismiss it. But instead of regularly having an orgasm instead only having one when it seems like it is actually going to be really helpful and it is truly needed for relieving some serious tensions or releasing some energy.

I Personally feel like the pleasure and wellbeing of an orgasm is so short, if we compare it to the pleasure of instead circulating and keeping the sexual energy within our body.

No Orgasm does not mean no sex or Love making. It means making love in a way where we are not chasing orgasm. No end goal. It means slowing way down and choosing to breathe and circulate energy when it gets to hot versus run towards it. No orgasm is in the long run far more pleasurable in my experience. Because I feel so much nourishing energizing sexual energy running thru my body when I have not released it by having an orgasm.

No Orgasm Love making is filled with pleasure and presence. Awareness and equanimity. Just moving connecting and sharing powerful sexual energy together. Circulating it all in our body. Into our heart up to the third eye down to our belly and toes. All Over. Really appreciating each others body, each others smell, moans, touch, caress, energy and breathing.

Orgasm can lead to people chasing orgasm. Craving orgasm. This in an unbalanced mind. Do we really wanna make love and be chasing this future pleasurable experience ? The Pleasure is right here. In the moment, feeling your partner deeply inside you deeply connected to him and being present with what you are feeling in your body. Breathing. Feeling. Being in Bliss together. Cultivating more love more powerful sexual nourishing energy between the two of you. After a love making like that you still feel so connected. Because energy is still there and SO alive. It keeps circulating and giving you feelings of pleasure even when you are not making love. Its like being penetrated and touched by an energy that you kept versus released with orgasm.

Many people feel done after orgasm. Like they can go to sleep or do something else. Also sometime less interest in their partner.
With non orgasm love making you can go all night and you will still feel up for it even after a long time because the energy is there. You choose when to stop. When ending a non orgasm love making session its so amazing to lay close together for sometime and just breathe and feel each other and our own bodies. Feel that power. That nourishment. That alive fresh and creative force of sexual energy. The sleep you may go into then is not because of energy having been released its because of feeling such bliss your body can deeply deeply relax into a great powerful Love energy. You feel connected. In Love. With everything. All of Life. Especially connected to your partner.

So we are on day 8 of our no orgasm for 30 days. Grateful for the experience. In meditation I noticed how amazing I feel in my body. How much sexual energy I feel. Just so Alive. I don’t need to be sexual with someone just because I feel sexual energy. I can utilize it and circulate it all in my body. See it as the nourishing food that it is. Just like sunlight and fresh air. Sexual energy is sooo nourishing for our body. Especially when we have a balanced mind. Not reacting to it all all the time. Needing to do something about it. We can just feel it. Engage when we choose.

Its kinda like you begin feeling like you are making love all the time. Like you are being penetrated by God in every moment. Thats what No orgasm can lead to for me.
Of course, we all truly know, the truth is we are God in each moment. We are Love in each moment. We cant ever get away from this truth. No matter what we think or believe, the truth is always this. Only Love is Real. God is all there is. Everything is God. Everything is Love. No matter how we or “others” express. Its all the Divine. There is no actual separation. No matter what it looks like. Its just an illusion. There is no separation……

Oneness. Rest in this and feel Full complete Trust. That all is working out. Everything is as it should. We are all okay no matter what the fuck happens to “us”. All temporary. Its all changing. Enjoy the experience. I Love you.

I will go play now. Over and out !

I’ve Lived in a state of Abundance all my life.

Have I always been Aligned with the infinite stream of Abundance and well being ?
No. Its always been with me though. State of Abundance is ours! We choose if we want to Align with it or not.

Are we ready to get Aligned ? Are we ready to Give and Receive in the most amazing magical ways ? Yeah. Its about time.

So, how to get Aligned ? What does that process look like for me ?

It begins with doing what I love everyday. Exercise, shake, meditate. Share and express myself.

It looks like really tuning into what truly excites me.

What when I tune into it makes me feel exhilarated, really alive and excited ?

Whatever that is, take action towards that. That is living in alignment.

Sometimes I’m excited to just allow myself to rest with complete feeling of Love and Gratitude that I am able to give my body/mind rest when it needs it. That feels so Abundant.

To get into alignment also begins with becoming very aware of your thoughts, beliefs and stories. To be very aware of what is really going on in the mind. Is there a belief that is limiting ? That is in conflict with what you truly desire ? Take a look, its always very honest and clear when you take a pure clear look at what is going on.

By beginning the practice of pure observation meditation everyday you begin to see that none of it is actually real. Yet something, believes it is. Only Infinite Love is actually real. This one truly begins to see. On a very deep level. Who we truly are. We are beyond body and mind. We are the most powerful thing there is. The creator ! Infinite creator.

While you are observing and becoming aware of your thoughts :
If you find a recurring thought pattern that is keeping you from taking an action step towards what you desire then I suggest you write that belief down. Put it out there more. See it for what it really is.
Your created thought. Why think something limiting when you can think something empowering ? Maybe we have been conditioned by the way we grew up or how society and movies portray things. Become aware of that too. Really set an intention to Clearly see what is up.
Check your thoughts stories and beliefs. Trace them back to where they may have first begun. Get clear on how you have been conditioned to see things in certain ways.
Realize you have the power to change. You have the power to choose a new way of thinking seeing and and what you believe. A new perception. You are the story teller. Forms and objects move according to the story you are telling or what you are believening.

To get into Alignment also begins with realizing that you are worthy of truly feeling and experiencing your true pure desire. You Deserve to have it all and more ! You Rising and Shining is what the whole Universe wants. Life sings and celebrates when you Love and feel your own Inherent Worth.

Realizing you cannot do wrong. Realizing that even the worst case scenario, is something you could handle if it were to happen.
Realize how strong and resilient you actually are and that everything that happens to you. Is happening for your growth and expansion into the greater stronger you. Always. Realize that everything in your universe wants what is best for you. Everything actually is really loving you. Even the stuff you may say “well hey this shit is hating me and hurting me”.

That “shit” is actually loving you. You know why ? Its showing you where you can choose love again, choose compassion again. Its showing you something about yourself and your life that you are being invited to change. Universe Life would never give you something it knew you could not rise higher from. You are forever expanding as the infinite love that we all are. Being in Alignment more and more helps us feel that infinite expansion happening. Gives us the same thoughts that are in alignment with who we are. Infinite Love and everlasting bliss.

So whatever you love to do. Do it. Whatever you love to feel. Feel it. Gratitude and Appreciation for every little thing. Yes. This is Abundant Living. Gratitude for the lessons. The Teaching of Life. Its not happening to us. Its happening FOR us. Its all for us to rise higher. Its all being done for us to forever and always come back to choosing Truth Unconditional Love and Power.

Embody the powerful Creators that we are. We are Abundant. Tap into the Abundant stream every day thru the actions that you know will take you there. Create express. Move beyond the fear and limiting beliefs. See its all just a creation from the mind. Its not even real! Its not. Prove it by doing everything you most wanna do even if it scares the shit out of some part of you. You will see, that part of you is just made up created ego. Haha. Not who you really are. You are the power. The Queen or King. The God or Goddess. You are Shining and You will Shine forever. You will share your excitements and Joy with the world. You will light up the world by being You!

Getting into alignment:
Eat Healthy
Drink plenty pure clean water
Get proper rest
Be around people who really want what is best for you who inspire you
Get outside into nature everyday
Exercise and shake daily
Meditate daily
Write down you Gratitude and appreciation
Breath deeply and relax
Sing dance Move !
Take time for You and self nurturing.
Read inspiring books or listen to inspiring videos
Purely see. Cleary. The truth in This moment.
Only Thing That is actually Real. Is LOVE. Everything else is made up by mind. Even your body. Made up. You are Only Love.
We are all Love. Embody. Live. Who You are.