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I am avoidant at times. Especially because I’m really attracted to you and you stir things up in me, I feel vulnerable and uncomfortable in my feelings, or like I’m going wild and I will lose control with you. I can’t help but get dripping wet by your presence, heart...

After my near deathI saidI will never have s e x again and I am SO okay with it I associated s e x with pain and disconnectionPerhaps some pleasure too yet not the type of pleasure I was interested in as it didn’t actually feel like soul nourishment I longed for...

Aloha, This is the first video in my new video series called random talks. Basically it's a in the moment freestyle talk where I just speak on a topic that comes up in the moment, I have not planned or rehearsed what Im going to say at all, so please remember to not...

I love the soft skin I feel I love the soft fuzzy hairs on my thighs  I love the feeling of my breath flowing in and out through my nostrils  I love the feeling of the earth beneath my feet  I love the touch of the air and atmosphere on this naked...

I’d prefer not to take praise or critique personally Really what I desire most is feeling my own validation and approval As I see the physical form Amanda in the mirror  May I hear the words I love you as I look into those eyes  Because as I love myself in all...

There is a vast infinite space in the small micro movements  The whole universe is felt in the stillness with another Also in the movement As I slow down I recognize it is so much to explore in this one still place In this gentle soft yet powerful embrace  Slowly...

Notes from a talk from Ohad Pele : When we tap into the divine within, our skin radiates  The flesh of the body is the gospel of the soul  Looking at a naked person, you can know so much about them, their naked body and skin is shining and expressing...

The head injuries are making me feel crazy Yeah, nobody really knows about it either The time I snorted white powder to the point of my brain melting - Living with the after effects of it for many years  The time I had drank absinthe and fell straight back and...

♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ I married myself about 6 months ago.  Inner union of masculine and feminine.  The feeling is wholeness. It’s really powerful and loving. I had no idea what a commitment like this would bring, as I made vows that I spoke out loud...

This presence, this moment, we are all worthy of it. If you find yourself overthinking, in doubt or overly questioning yourself, if you feel worry or any type of concern…Know that in this moment you can give it all up to Love, to God, to Life, to Source, to the...

The food I eat effect my mental health big time, the health of my gut microbiome is crucial for me to think clearly and actually live in the truth of reality vs in stories and  past pain and traumas.  If I think for a moment that it does not matter what I eat, well I...

I shared a huge powerful orgasm yesterday with my partner, it was truly incredible and oh so pleasurable and expansive, but let me tell ya, in the future instead of exploding this energy out of my body, I truly fucking commit to keeping it in and instead breathing...

Love yourself no matter what that’s what this journey is about. 

Something i've noticed, and this is so great,  is I notice I want to run away from this relationship so I can be more peaceful again and like who I am again, yet am I really changing then or am I just changing my environment? I notice I have this story that its...

Today I for the first time ever allowed myself to experience an oming session, I had felt scared and resistant to asking my partner Wayne to do it with me, funny and strange as he is my partner, I still felt so vulnerable to do a session like this with him, and its...

I feel like I just want to go away from him, before he hurts me it is best I leave him. Why do I have so much pain associated to him being with another women, I really do, but why, I know it’s always going to be in the most loving open truthful way if it does...

Outcome happiness - only happy if this happens or that person likes me or I get that job or I look this way or I get this approval or I make lots of money or I have that shiny car......all these things are great, but they are not what give true real deep genuine...

What we are is such a beautiful luminous light! Our shared love and Joy is the medicine for this world. Let us share this energy with more of our people, through our deep commitment to honesty, honoring our truths and speaking them, using our voice, we can all begin...

My feelings are important, my feelings are guides, I like to make sure I am not feeling something because of a story in my head of not being good enough or a story or mistrust and doubt, those do not feel like true feelings to me, they feel like made up stories of...

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It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are...